school

seeing this photo rlly brings back memories .
i mean , im starting to miss sch loads ,
& work is hell boring .

i rlly miss lessons ;
sleeping in class ;
bitching during recess & aft sch ;
walking about sch like we own it ;
avoiding mdm khoo as she makes her rounds ;
spot checks early in the morning ;
bridging during chem at the AVT ;
lab lessons with my fab lab partner ;
singing the national anthem with nrl in front & priya behind ;
texting in class ;


& the list goes on .




sometimes when im so bored , & im roaming arnd town
be it with friends or alone ,
& when i see groups of pple in schU flocking to cafes for lunch ,
or even just studying at coffee bean .
it makes me feel so empty cos im not doing what they're doing .
yes , im missing secondary sch life .
dont get me wrong , im happily graduated .
happily enjoying my holidays .
but its just a sense of emptiness , like you have no focus
& there's nothing you need to rlly get down to doing .
like you're jst wasting your life away .

so whenever i get to get my hands on smth with a purpose ,
i'll probably take it .
which explains why im gonna help sandra out with her worship encounter thing .
its gonna take up quite some time & definitely some working hours ,
but i guess its worth it .



im pretty sure that O lvl results will be out this coming friday ,
i guess it'll be time for us all to gather & catch up .
tears of joy or sadness ;
laughter & noise to make up for the emptiness .
another two mths or so , & the brilliant sch term will start .
yes , i'll be busy ;
but i rather be busy than feel that emptiness of not having anything to do .
maybe it'll be fun to study hard , for once (:


thinking abt studying ,
i realized ive never rlly studied during all my years in sec sch ,
at least right till the very end that i finally woke up & caught up .
i only passed minimal subjects in sec 1 & 2 ,
scraped through sec 3 to be promoted to sec 4 .
i rmbr clearly that little conference we had with mrs lim in the conf room ,
i guess that was what spurred me to work hard .
all of us felt so fricking guilty .
i rmbr i teared too .
dang ,




9th february , dudes .



-out